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Pink playdough and life

This morning, Bella and I made playdough! It was the easiest recipe :)

2 cups of plain flour

1 cup of cold water

1 cup of salt

1 tablespoon of oil
food colouring

No cooking required!

Of course we made it pink :) Bella really had no idea what to do with it at first. She then proceeded to eat it, which didnt go down to well. She got the hang of it after a while :)

It's currently in the fridge so we can play again this afternoon.

You know, sometimes I feel like that playdough - being pushed and pulled around, bashed up and then rolled out again. We are heading off to another doctor this afternoon to see if we can get some answers regarding my anxiety, phobias and OCD. She specialises in this area, so hopefully she wont just hand me a pill and shove me out the door. I know the medication I am on isnt working well, and that probably needs to change. I am hopeful, yet still think that nothing is going to change. I have a pretty defeatist attitude and know I need to be more positive.

We'll see how we go this afternoon. Abraham took the car to work and will come back and pick me up to go to the doctor. If it was left up to me to get there by myself I would never go.

Two thousand and ten

So, Christmas came and went! We had a lovely time at my auntys house with my side of the family. Bella had a great time playing on the tramp with the boys!

We bought Bella a new bike for Christmas. It is a convertible one which can be used from 10 months to 3-4 years. She loves us pushing her around in it! Mum and Dad bought her 2 dresses, a doll, 2 sippy cups and a cot sheet set. Nick bought her a book with a keyboard attached - she loves it!

Mum and dad arrived from Queensland on Christmas Eve! They havent seen Bella since September so were eager to arrive here! Oh, and I got the biggest surprise on Christmas morning!! Everyone knew about it except for me! Dad told us that he had to go and visit his side of the family in East Balliang (which wasnt unusual, because Grandma was only down for Christmas Day) He said he would be back in time for us to head to my auntys house. I didnt think anything of it!

Dad arrived home and we were all sitting outside on our front steps. Dad yelled out "Oh, I picked up a hitch hiker on the way home!" and then out of the car jumps this guy! I really thought dad had picked up someone from the side of the road! I looked again and realised it was my brother!! I hadnt seen him for 15 months!! It was such a special surprise :o)

So Mum, Dad and Nick were all here until the 30th! It was a sad day when they had to leave again! Nick hadnt seen Bella since she was a week old!

Then came New Years Eve, which saw us heading to Abrahams parents place to hang out with them and eat oliebollen! Bella crashed at 8:30, and I only just made it to midnight!

Who knows what is in store for 2010. I'm scared, excited, hopeful yet pessimistic about what it holds. I want so many things, but most of all I want to be well again. It's not something that is just going to happen, I know I need to work on it. It's going to be damn hard.